| All of You |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|08:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | SNL | ] |
You offer me the world,
You offer me all of you,
I turn it over in my hands,
Examining the many intricacies,
Staring at the bold universal truths of
Sex .
In taking all of you,
I would give you all of me,
And there are risks, there are dangers,
In such complete togetherness.
The world you offer me is made of
doubt
guilt
serious responsibilites
but so much
Pleasure.
You take your offer off the table,
You shrug off the rejection,
You love me no matter what our differences,
I turn you over in my arms,
Reconsidering my answer,
Losing my sense in my desire for
Your body.
In taking all of you,
I would give you all of me,
And there is magic, there is beauty,
In such complete togetherness.
The world you offered me is made of
heaven
love
eternal closeness
and so much
Pleasure.
You offered me the world,
You offered me all of you,
And I gave it back,
But I want us to be the same for just one night,
I want to give you my world and take yours in my arms,
I want you,
I want all of you. |
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| Untitled as of yet |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|05:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My Stupid Mouth by JM | ] |
There are times
Your love is as whole and undeniable as the sky,
Seeming to stretch on forever,
Limitless and too expansive to be understood.
These are the times I love you most,
These are the times I allow myself to trust you,
These are the times I am completely yours.
With your love as my sky,
I will happily lie underneath you,
Staring up and sighing,
Letting go of everything else,
Being content with what we have.
There are times,
Your love is as slight and inconspicuous as a shadow in the dark,
Seeming to disappear,
Hidden and easy to forget.
These are the times I hardly love you at all,
These are the times I do not trust you,
These are the times you are not allowed any part of my heart.
When your love shrinks or camouflages,
I run from you,
Crying or laughing at my foolishness,
Wondering who else could love me, how he could love me,
Disregarding and losing what we have. |
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| Skipping |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|02:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  so happy!!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | No Other Way by Jack Johnson | ] |
Me and Erik skipped school today. Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun! We talked, we joked, we kissed, we did other stuff... ;) OMG sooooooo crazy fun. We had a grass fight,lol, and he put on my hat and I took some pics of him cos he looked so cute. He told me he wants me to be the first girl he has sex with and he can't imagine it being someonne else, he wouldn't break up with me unless he was forced to move away for college(we're juniors), that I'm beautiful, cute, and sweet, and that he wants to live with me. He is just sooo awesome sometimes. Skipping school rocks my socks. Oh and tomorrow's Wednesday so he' coming over after school! Yes! |
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| Long Time No Write |
[Oct. 28th, 2005|03:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  relaxing finally | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dane Cook - Hopped Up on the Q | ] |
Omg it's been so long. My school is absolutely nuts. I have so much work it's not even funny and there were some rough patches with the boyfriend and just so much stress. But it's the weekend, it's the last day of first term, Monday is Halloween and I'm going to Erik's tomorrow! I saw Elizabethtown today, loved it, but that's no surprise. Orlando is the sexiest thing ever. My iPod started working and I loved it and now it won't turn on anymore for no apparent reason. I'm going to be a french maid for Halloween, so unoriginal but so sexy and fun! So basically school sucks, I love Erik, I've been working wayyyyyy too hard and I'm gonna have some mother fuckin fun!
question of the day: What's your favorite candy?
My answer: snickers |
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| Halloween Costume |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|12:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  omg omg omg so awesome! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | SNL | ] |
What should I be for Halloween? I've always done fairly original stuff, I kinda wanna be something classic and crazy. I'm thinking maid, nurse, girlscout(it's sexy) or flapper. Anyone know what they're gonna be?
Oh and p.s., no time to explain right now but I had the absolute best day ever with Erik. OMFG I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| The World In Your Arms |
[Oct. 13th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Gravity by JM | ] |
Finally got to see my baby after school today. Oh God it was so good. I love him more than I can voice, more than I can kiss, more than I can feel. I wish he could live with me. Damn highschool. Here's a poem I wrote today, "The World in Your Arms"
In your arms,
The world slows down.
Each moment is about where your fingers are,
I don’t count seconds,
But touches.
I don’t want words,
But kisses.
Each breath is about how softly it’s released.
There are no lines,
No discomfort,
There is no countdown,
Nowhere to be,
In your arms,
The world almost stops.
Happiness is a given,
Which smiles at us on the walls.
The words which missed their windows
Pour out into the sunshine,
Making the room even brighter.
Kisses aren’t rushed,
Touches flow on for forever,
In your arms,
The world is born. |
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| Make Out Songs |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|11:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Love Fool | ] |
So me and Erik always make out with the tv on. I kinda hate it. I mean, I cant REALLY hate it cos well you know... But we always watch tv and then just leave it on(can't turn it off with the remote) and it leaves sounds so my parents don't know when we're making out instead of really watching it, so that's good. But anyway, I want to make out to sexy songs. I'm gna make a cd, but so far this is all I've got...
Caramel by Suzanne Vega
Secret by Maroon 5
Come Back to Bed by John Mayer
Your Body Is a Wonderland by John Mayer
Come on Closer by Jem
And I Love Her by The Beatles
Forever Love by Anna Nalick
Anyone have any suggestions? |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 1st, 2005|11:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | SNL | ] |
had some good lovin' today. oh baby oh baby. Erik left his sweatshirt at my house by accident, I'm wearing it right now... so comfy and Erik-y, I never wna give it back. OMG, I am just tooo happy!!! |
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| Restlessness leads to Randomness |
[Oct. 1st, 2005|11:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Who Did You Think I Was | ] |
Wow, sooooo can't wait to get out of work.
If you haven't heard "Who Did You Think I Was" I just have to say it's an awesome song, even if you don't like John Mayer. It's not like his other stuff, it's a cover, and it's bluesy and kinda anrgy and very...
manly. I love it! And he's gna play it at the concert!!!!! 10 days!!!! Woohoo! I put on my Mrs. Mayer shirt yesterday... so adorable.
just thought i'd post some absolutely orgasmic pics.
( orli ) |
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| "Feels Like" Release |
[Sep. 30th, 2005|03:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | "Feels Like" Release | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Feels Like Rain by John Mayer | ] |
It's finally Friday!!!!!! Here's my poem about the beauty of Friday afternoon relaxation....
Release finally comes to me,
Like a friend I left behind.
Music takes over thoughts and the spaces I’ve left unfilled,
unwritten on,
unlearned.
I’m unfurled like a red ribbon in the clear air,
Blowing freely, dancing across the wind.
Sunshine replaces light bulbs and the confines of a classroom,
a smile in the sky,
genuine hope,
Filling the rooms of my home as if it really is happiness.
My world collapses,
Dropping everything, breathing, sipping air like nectar.
It spreads itself out across the couch,
And closes its weary eyes.
I fall into gorgeous chords,
And become part of songs that attach themselves to my soul.
“And it Feels like Rain,” just like he sings.
Pure gold seeps into my body,
My hips swivel a figure eight,
My head sways and my fingers paint invisible pictures,
I vibrate like the strings of a guitar.
Release finally comes to me,
Like a lyric I forgot the words to.
random question: Should I get a tattoo? |
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| Pick a Poem |
[Sep. 28th, 2005|10:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sex and the City | ] |
Hey, I'm reading at a big poetry event in a few weeks, and it's a benefit for Katrina. Please tell me which of these poems you think I should read(I only have two minutes to do so).
( poems ) |
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| Making Out Class |
[Sep. 26th, 2005|11:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bit sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Will & Grace | ] |
So much fun today. It sucked at first cos school = so not fun, bad math test, pop quiz in french, AP US HiSUCKtory, but me and Erik had some fun later on. I went to his locker with him after 6th period(our study together) and I was like "Ok, see you after school" and he was like, "Wait, let me get a hug!" and it was so cute, so I was just like, "Hey do you wna meet me?" and he goes, "YEAH!!!" so we met, after much confusion and being late to get out of class(1:49 instead of 1:45) and we walked around school trying to find a good place to ahem, be alone... ; ) and we finally did and got to do the whole kissy face thing and it was great. I got back to class like 15 minutes after I got a pass, everyone just stared at me, but my teacher didnt say anything, just rolled his eyes, Mr. crazy Izzo loves me anyway, so it was fine. Tomorrow we're gna meet 4th period cos I can always get out of AP Writing(God I love that class, so easy and fun) and he has math which he leaves everyday anyway, so there ya go! And we found a good spot(back staircase, very secluded), wow I can't wait. Making out is such the funnest class ever!
After school Me and Greg hung out, it was fun. We went for a walk and just chilled. IT's really nice to relax after school instead of just getting home and working working working. We ordered take-out too, cheeseburgers are yummy! Good times good times.
Question of the day: What is your solace?
My answer: nature, poetry, getting a breath of fresh air, relaxing avec friends |
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| My Energetic Day! |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|01:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  waiting | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Love Fool by the Cardigans | ] |
Yesterday was so great! School was school of course, but I didn't have any tests and I got to see Erik so much more than before. Oh, and I wore this very sexy very cleavage-y shirt so all the hotties were looking at me! ; ) There's this really really crazy beautiful hot kid, Nick who was actually my first boyfriend, and he's in my AP Writing class, and he's just soooo hot, and he talked to me and checked me out yesterday! Omg, so hot! But I don't like him cos we don't really mesh well and he's kind of jerky if he thinks you aren't cool enough for him. Plus he broke up with me for another girl before, so I could never trust him. But anyway, sidebar lol!, after school me and Janice went to Starbucks, and my sweet boyfriend went to the galleria to get food, and then came back to Starbucks to eat it with his girlfriend and her friends instead of with his footbal buddies! Omg, it was so sweet. Then me Janice and Mindy(another school friend) went downtown and my best friend Greg met up with us at the fountain, and we hung out and window shopped, and flirted with guys(me most actually), then when Mindy went home, we met this kid mark who Janice kinda knew and we hung out with him and he showed us his sketch book and stuff and we played "Roll the Pigs(wierd game)" and he likes Janice, so obviously! He tried to dunk her into the Copley fountain a few times, then I climbed a tree and they threw wads of fountain-dipped newspaper at me, and it was so much fun. Then me and Greg went to dance class, yuck, but it was kinda fun, and I had some wine when I got home, it was really good, strong stuff. I just had so much energy and I was like bouncing around all day. That's why I was so flirty partly, and also cos I was with my friends being silly and crazy. There was this really really hot Italian kid in a car and I said hi and he waved and he was so cute. Then there were the guys in the taxi... ooh baby! I blew them a kiss and they blew one back, and it was so fun! Those were my two favs, although the gujys in suits were hot too! I love being checked out and flirting and just goofing around. But you know what I love even more? My boyfriend and being in love. I had fun playing around but I didn't really want any of the guys, I even felt kinda bad afterwards, but I figure I was just having fun, right? As long as I'm faithful, and I always have been. |
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| Back on Track |
[Sep. 22nd, 2005|04:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | myself singing | ] |
Your unromance is spreading into me
What happened to my dreams
You’re nonchalant you’re so laid back
I’m forgetting I don’t do that
And I’m so so relaxed
It scares me
Losing my poetry
It scares me
Letting go of my fantasies
I’m so so relaxed
If I lose myself can I get me back
Back on track? |
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| So Perfect! |
[Sep. 21st, 2005|09:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | finally feeling loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sex and the City | ] |
Wow, tonight was so good. Erik totally reassured me about everything. I wasn't even gonna talk about the inattention or whatever cos I was over it pretty much, but after we made out and stuff, he was like, "Why is it so wierd at school?" And I was like, "Why are you so mean to me at school?" And then we got into the whole thing and he seemed to think I looked like I didn't want to talk to him or something. But he just hugged me tighter and he said, "I love you." And we made up and he promised to pay attention and I promised to yell at him if I was mad instead of silently getting back at him. And he said, "Every day when I come home I want you to be there, I want you to be in my bed," and it was all just so sweet. I can't wait until tomorrow so I can see him! Oh man, I gotta do some homework. I can't believe I didn't do it yet. |
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| Hot And Cold |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|06:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sponge Bob | ] |
Hot and cold,
Hot and cold,
Look,
Hope,
Bend,
Break,
Love is a pattern.
Hot and cold,
Hot and cold,
Wonder,
Analyze,
Write,
Replace,
Thoughts are a pattern.
Hot and cold,
Hot and cold,
Love,
Create,
Miss,
Change,
Life is a pattern.
Weave your love life however you want,
It all comes back to hot and cold,
Search for love,
Lay in it for a while,
Let it go,
Patch it up,
Think he doesn’t love you,
Re-learn that he does,
Scold yourself for doubting,
Fall back into love,
It will all turn out the same.
Take your thoughts wherever you think best,
It all comes back to hot and cold.
Illuminate yourself,
Read all you can,
Overanalyze love,
Oversimplify life,
Theorize about evrything,
Get hurt by epiphanies,
Clean the slate,
Exchange theories,
It will all continue the same way.
Live your world however you want it,
Get lost in love,
Try new things,
Say goodbyes,
Turn yourself inside out,
Hide in any solace you can find,
Do what comes naturally,
Pretend you live in happier times,
It will all repeat itself,
Hot and cold. |
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| Dane Cook |
[Sep. 18th, 2005|10:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Dane is funny! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Emmy's still | ] |
This is Dane Cook. He's my new boyfriend. He's sooooooo funny, you should visit his website!!!
What's your fav show?
Dane's Answer: Justice Files, you know why? Cos I love Justice! And I love files! And when the two come together, I could blow a justicey load! |
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| I Want It |
[Sep. 18th, 2005|07:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | whatever i guess | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Emmy's | ] |
                 Good day, yummy food, apple-picking, good times. Oh man, I want Erik so bad... I hate waiting. I want it soooo bad!
Question of the day: What's your favorite holiday?
My answer: Halloween!!!
Quote of the day: "At least the animal on my head won't attack her!" |
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| Just Skin |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|11:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | SNL | ] |
How much is there to me?
Are there special smiles,
Best kisses,
Cute quirks,
Precious qualties you admire?
Or am I just skin,
good feelings,
pleasure tingling up your spine?
Your love is left unsaid,
Your feelings are kept inside.
How much do you want of me?
Do you long for my laughter,
My stories,
My comments,
The charm that kept you coming?
Or am I just a body,
skilled hands,
a tongue rolling indulgence around on you?
Your love is left understated,
Your feelings are left for me to guess. |
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| He Read It |
[Sep. 14th, 2005|09:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | so happy, so loved! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Laguna!!! | ] |
So apparently Erik has read my LJ. Lol. He said he only read one entry and he picked it at random, cos he respects me and my privacy. The thing he read was a poem that "made fun of him" and I just read it, I was like, wow, all the wonderful things I've written about him and he had to read that one. I'm kinda glad he didn't read one of the like, innapropriate ones tho... lol, that coulda been funny tho. Wow, I love him so much, we had so much fun tonight.
Question of the day: What is your favorite food?
My answer: chocolate! |
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